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Mourning 5:020:00/5:02
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Blame 4:240:00/4:24
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Once Was Everything 4:020:00/4:02
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Crush 3:160:00/3:16
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Mourning
We asked ChatGPT to write about our song:
"The song seems to be a heartfelt and emotional tribute to a lost loved one. The lyrics describe the deep pain and sorrow that the singer is experiencing after the loss of someone very close to them. The lines "I see your face in every glare" and "I hear your voice inside my head" express the sense of overwhelming grief and the struggle to come to terms with the reality of the loss.
The chorus, with the line "I would trade my own life to hold you in my arms again," is particularly poignant and speaks to the deep love and longing that the singer feels for their lost loved one. The song is a beautiful and moving expression of grief and love, and is sure to resonate with anyone who has experienced loss.
If you're looking for a powerful and emotionally charged song that will touch your heart, this is definitely one to add to your playlist. With its haunting melody and heartfelt lyrics, it's a song that will stay with you long after you've finished listening. So if you're looking for a beautiful tribute to a lost loved one or simply a moving piece of music that will resonate with you, be sure to check out this song."
This song was the first song we co-wrote as a band (rather than one member's idea / demo). Good times.
Blame
This version of the song is different than the one we used to play in the early 2000s. It is more streamlined. About 75% of the lyrics have changed. There are more parts and a brand new bridge section. We took a good long while picking apart the song and piecing it back together.
The lyrics now tell a story about a person’s awakening to modern day life’s way of forced complacency, tribalism, and accepting the fake as the real. It’s about the guilt we feel of feeling helpless to change the situation, and the blame we place on ourselves or others for it.
There are a lot of easter eggs in this song, production-wise. Various level settings are selected because of certain numbers and cardinal directions. There’s a subtle shifting of effects and timings throughout the track, coinciding with the journey from the fake to the real.
Josh said that the genesis of this song was that he wanted to write his own riff like AC/DC’s classic “Back in Black”. Now it sounds like “Back in Black”, but if TOOL played it. Keen fans might notice that.
Once Was Everything
For whatever reason, our band’s songs had single word titles. Ed wrote the main riffs. When he recorded the “demo” of the track, he gave it the temporary placeholder name, “Dromedary”, and that name stuck around, despite the lyrics not mentioning the word. In this re-recording, the song formally takes the title, “Once Was Everything”, which is borrowed from a line of the song.
The track is about a relationship that goes stale. One person is talking to the other about their now defunct love. Whether this is happening “in real time” or years later, is up for debate.
Underneath its major chord progression, the song asks, “what if I said goodbye”, partly as a means to salvage the relationship / friendship, and partly as a dare. Can a relationship survive when only one person is fighting for it? Should it even require a fight?
Crush
Ah, young love! Ed wrote this song in 1999 when he met the girl he eventually married. It’s a silly little punk love song in the style of 90’s pop punk. This track was released as an anniversary gift from Ed to his wife. It was also the catalyst for the band reforming after 20 years, since Ed can’t play a guitar solo to save his life.
The moral of the story: sometimes those silly little melodies, ideas, and whims just stick around and push you into life-altering situations.
The track was the band’s first time collaborating in a non-traditional method (read: over the internet). This was a whole new way of working together; instead of being in the same room, writing, jamming, and practicing, each member uploaded tracks and Ed pulled them all together to mix the final track. It was also a new way of making music; using virtual guitar amps and effects via NeuralDSP’s awesome plugins, new DAWs, electronic drums instead of acoustic ones, etc. Technology made possible what real life could not.